Life cannot be controlled, and the future is not determined by the past. One small thing can change someone’s life for the better or worst. Life comes with both negative and positive trials, hence one has to find ways to “escape” or confide in someone.
It is easier being a shoulder to cry on; yet crying on someone’s shoulder has become a fear that I really have to conquer.
I have always put other people’s feelings and needs before mine, but now it’s time for change.
From an early age it has always been easier for me to focus on finding solutions to help people around me. Although it has always been perceived as a positive thing to other people, I have discovered that, I was merely using that as a way for me to escape from my own life and reality revealed to me that I am a coward at times.
Listening to other people blubbing about the problems in their lives became an escape route for me.
At this stage of my life am going through many challenges, and trials, getting a friend that I can share all my worries with, or a shoulder that can help me carry my heavy burdens would really be like heaven to me.
I don’t know if it is possible for someone’s spirit to get exhausted, but mine is, really am drained and my mind is dehydrated from all the times that I had to give advice, from all the times that I had to sacrifice my time to help another.
I mean two weeks back, a friend of mine asked me to help her with her school assignment, not bearing in mind that I have the same amount of work load as she does. Well, because I have made it a habit to put other people’s needs before mine, I had to “put my work on hold” in order to satisfy my friend’s need.
Am happy to say that, she helped me, because at that point I realised that It’s me time!, It’s time for me to be the victim in my life and let the hands of friends and family catch me when I fall.
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