Exam stress...

OOOOOOOOOOOh cheese and tomato, there we go again! # sad face#

Exam time, aaaaaah, I could just die now and wake up in 2014. I really do not have any problems with school and attending all my classes, but when it comes to exams, I get a phobia.

Well, I think I have a valid reason why I really hate exams…I cannot study! I know, a third year student may sound insane for saying such, but it’s true.  I have been in school for more than a decade now, and I have tried all study methods I know, yet I still do not know what to do when I have to prepare for exams. How do you start, and how does one get all the information in their head and not forget anything.

I have tired asking my friends to help, but all I get is a sigh, I have also asked one of the top students in class and all they tell me is what I already know.

 That is just crazy really; I cannot get my head around it. Another thing that seems to possess me is exhaustion. God knows I try, but I always get super tired when I have to study or prepare for any examination. Yep, I know, its sounds like am just a lazy girl who does not want to study, but that is so not true, I really want to get as many distinctions as I can, and I know that in order for that dream to become a reality, I have to ,man up and dance to the beat.

When it comes to finding a study method, I have decided to, do what I have always been doing, but this time; I do it three times more. I guess by doing that, I can get all the distinctions that I only dream of getting, but the most essential factor that needs to be done before anything is to pray and ask God to clear my mind and put my understanding on full focus. Another thing that I think can help me is to get as much sleep as I can, because really… I stress too much, and then I do not get the time to rest my mind, body and soul.

Well, now I will practise what I preach and really do all that I say I will do. And with that attitude on full force, exams here I come!

It’s me time…

Life cannot be controlled, and the future is not determined by the past. One small thing can change someone’s life for the better or worst. Life comes with both negative and positive trials, hence one has to find ways to “escape” or confide in someone.

It is easier being a shoulder to cry on; yet crying on someone’s shoulder has become a fear that I really have to conquer.

I have always put other people’s feelings and needs before mine, but now it’s time for change.

From an early age it has always been easier for me to focus on finding solutions to help people around me. Although it has always been perceived as a positive thing to other people, I have discovered that, I was merely using that as a way for me to escape from my own life and reality revealed to me that I am a coward at times.

Listening to other people blubbing about the problems in their lives became an escape route for me.

At this stage of my life am going through many challenges, and trials, getting a friend that I can share all my worries with, or a shoulder that can help me carry my heavy burdens would really be like heaven to me.

I don’t know if it is possible for someone’s spirit to get exhausted, but mine is, really am drained and my mind is dehydrated from all the times that I had to give advice, from all the times that I had  to sacrifice  my time to help another.

I mean two weeks back, a friend of mine asked me to help her with her school assignment, not bearing in mind that I have the same amount of work load as she does. Well, because I have made it a habit to put other people’s needs before mine, I had to “put my work on hold” in order to satisfy my friend’s need.

Am happy to say that, she helped me, because at that point I realised that It’s me time!, It’s time for me to be the victim in my life and let the hands of friends and family catch me when I fall.