my song..... please download and listen

U found me, when I needed love
U held me, and you made my heart your home
I sit around and dream, and there is noone else i see
coz there is noone else for me
I dnt feel like crying

I have no tears
Coz i have, no reason to cry
Love is on mind
And my heart's no longer blue
Now that I have you

I dnt let anyone tell me what to do
How to love, who to love
They  dnt know you like I know u
This is so natural, its hard to believe
People all around me, and there is onone else for me
coz there is noone else i see

cont....
I love this song

NOW THAT I HAVE YOU BY: LUTHER VANDROSS

Baby Mama Drama!!!

I Have never in my wildest dreams ever thought that I would be in such a situation…I just have too many questions, does having children with someone automatically make you soul mates? What about the people who have been separated, share 4 children and are leaving a beautiful life apart.

I really don’t mind being in a relationship with a guy that has a child (children), but I honestly cannot stand women who nag and think that giving a man a child, binds him to her till the end of time. Once you break-up regardless of what you share or shared, it’s done with you. Some girls sell themselves very cheap when they constantly run behind their EXs looking for love in the past.

So ladies if your baby daddy has moved on, deal with it and do the same, if you can’t then simply work on giving your child the best life. Forcing love is like digging your own grave. Men will always be men, they have the power to beside whom they want to get married to and who to play around with. He truly loves you…girl, he will surely not give you kids them leave.

JUST SAYING.

MOTIVATIONAL TALK...

You've got to follow your passion. You've got to figure out what it is you love--who you really are. And have the courage to do that. I believe that the only courage anybody ever needs is the courage to follow your own dreams.

- Oprah Winfrey

I have always wondered what people think of me, if they really like me or pretend to. My life revolved around people’s opinions and there perspective of me, until I realise that God created everyone different with functions that are in no way identical.

That was the day I genuinely started loving myself, my thoughts, my body and soul. I realised that I am a GREAT person, a DIVA in the making. All I have to do is have goals, visions and a passion to prosper. I now know what I want in life. I have an idea of where am going and how to get there. I will make mistakes, but that will only give me strength to face another day with its challenge.

I have what it takes to be whatever I want to be. My name will be remembered by generations to come. I will be a great success and iGugu (treasure) to the world.

WHEN THE TIME COMES, DO NOT SAY I DID NOT WARN YOU.

am back

Back to work

At long last, am back at work. Have been longing for this moment for a while.... LOL actually a month. I was getting annoyed of asking my parents to help me financially for my basic necessities. I have been going through a rough patch, but now am back on my feet.

Stogies Corner (the company I work for) here I come……Yepppi

Exam stress...

OOOOOOOOOOOh cheese and tomato, there we go again! # sad face#

Exam time, aaaaaah, I could just die now and wake up in 2014. I really do not have any problems with school and attending all my classes, but when it comes to exams, I get a phobia.

Well, I think I have a valid reason why I really hate exams…I cannot study! I know, a third year student may sound insane for saying such, but it’s true.  I have been in school for more than a decade now, and I have tried all study methods I know, yet I still do not know what to do when I have to prepare for exams. How do you start, and how does one get all the information in their head and not forget anything.

I have tired asking my friends to help, but all I get is a sigh, I have also asked one of the top students in class and all they tell me is what I already know.

 That is just crazy really; I cannot get my head around it. Another thing that seems to possess me is exhaustion. God knows I try, but I always get super tired when I have to study or prepare for any examination. Yep, I know, its sounds like am just a lazy girl who does not want to study, but that is so not true, I really want to get as many distinctions as I can, and I know that in order for that dream to become a reality, I have to ,man up and dance to the beat.

When it comes to finding a study method, I have decided to, do what I have always been doing, but this time; I do it three times more. I guess by doing that, I can get all the distinctions that I only dream of getting, but the most essential factor that needs to be done before anything is to pray and ask God to clear my mind and put my understanding on full focus. Another thing that I think can help me is to get as much sleep as I can, because really… I stress too much, and then I do not get the time to rest my mind, body and soul.

Well, now I will practise what I preach and really do all that I say I will do. And with that attitude on full force, exams here I come!

It’s me time…

Life cannot be controlled, and the future is not determined by the past. One small thing can change someone’s life for the better or worst. Life comes with both negative and positive trials, hence one has to find ways to “escape” or confide in someone.

It is easier being a shoulder to cry on; yet crying on someone’s shoulder has become a fear that I really have to conquer.

I have always put other people’s feelings and needs before mine, but now it’s time for change.

From an early age it has always been easier for me to focus on finding solutions to help people around me. Although it has always been perceived as a positive thing to other people, I have discovered that, I was merely using that as a way for me to escape from my own life and reality revealed to me that I am a coward at times.

Listening to other people blubbing about the problems in their lives became an escape route for me.

At this stage of my life am going through many challenges, and trials, getting a friend that I can share all my worries with, or a shoulder that can help me carry my heavy burdens would really be like heaven to me.

I don’t know if it is possible for someone’s spirit to get exhausted, but mine is, really am drained and my mind is dehydrated from all the times that I had to give advice, from all the times that I had  to sacrifice  my time to help another.

I mean two weeks back, a friend of mine asked me to help her with her school assignment, not bearing in mind that I have the same amount of work load as she does. Well, because I have made it a habit to put other people’s needs before mine, I had to “put my work on hold” in order to satisfy my friend’s need.

Am happy to say that, she helped me, because at that point I realised that It’s me time!, It’s time for me to be the victim in my life and let the hands of friends and family catch me when I fall.